Lazyness

Well I bought the bought how to tame the white elephant. so far on I'm on the second exercise. Which is to clean up one room like no one was  there. Kitchen looks pretty darn clean to me lol. Next thing I need to work on is setting my workout schedule and my bed time. I must get a routine going. I got my guitar out yesterday and started messing around again with it. It was fun. Natasha and I bought gears of war and a kentic game. We had fun playing it last night. I think that was the first time we played since we meet and hung out for the first time. I want  to back to school next semester too. The tribe will pay for it, i'm just afraid I won't pass. I should really give it a try though, I know I can find something I enjoy and will be good at. Hope that will come soon!


Oh well till next time!

Hay DAyMay!!!

Well this is the start of the week. Been doing some thinking and the more i think about school I want to go. But first thing first. Getting my Home Inspection test done  and passed. the rest of this month I'm going to study my butt off for it. Also within this month I plan on getting more organized and getting my thoughts, business and personal income together. I'm tried of not have saving and not having money saved up. I got a baby on the way. can't wait, excited and have a great girl that loves me and family to support me. Life can't get any better. Thank you God for everything and seeing my way. ( I still want a tattoo so i can keep a reminder to watch my back and to stay away from people that are negative and not to listen to everything people tell me to do. I have a dad to help me with that.

"How to train a wild Elephant"

Well today, I started reading how to train a wild Elephant. I'm hoping this book and the exercises in it will help me become more aware of things around me and help me think before socialing with people. I think part of my problem is anxiety. I know I can over come this; and i have bc i can speak in public. it's monotone but i can.  Anyway today start the first day of the exercises. I still need to start speaking properly.

1st- exercise ( do things with your non- dominated hand.

Getting excited

Well, I think we are going to do it, moving to baton rouge. I have to run Wavs a little longer, but I can see my self moving to br. We will have to stay with natasha mom for a little bit. Next week I will be looking at real state brokers I will be working for. I'm ready for a change and to do my own thing. I just hope God will help us with this new adjustment and help me sell some house. I really do think this is my dream job! The job i'm looking for and will do well in. I will also look into home inspections and start studying this week. Just gotta make the right decisions.

I think natasha will be excited to move to the city. She is kinda of worried about help with the baby, but I think It'll be fine. We will make it and I will be closer to Rylan. If all else fells which I hope it doesnt' bc i will make this work. I still have school and she wants to go to school.

Need A sign From GOD

I really need a sign and help from GOD  right now! Things are not working out right now. I know that everything has to break sometime, but all at once really. I know people probably got it worse then me, but i need just a little slack. Last year wasn't a great year for me and this year isn't looking any better. Ive tired to watch my back but i slip up again. The only good thing is i quite smoking lol. I just need some help!

Really deep thoughts

Well, after court monday. I didn't have to pay back child support. I got f*ck bc i make to much money. But in the long run, me not staying with lillie rubin is a big plus and i save either way. Anyway I have a new start on life b/c i met a great girl. Not my dream girl i guess... (but I may be wrong).  but she has a great personality and fun to be around. I know she will take care of Rylan and do what's right, when it comes down to it. Plus she seems loyal and willing to do anything that works.
 I'm almost 30 and I feel that I've been doing things people want me to do. I know they want the best for me, but I don't want to live in Louisiana any more.  Yes! I will miss all my friends, but I really don't hangout with them bc they have their on thing going on.  Even my best friend we don't have much in common. I just feel like I need to be by the beach. I have 20 gs. I think I should buy some property in al or fl. bc if i don't I think I will never ever live there. Now that I'm think about things. I need to go to school so i can get a job in the fl area. I know the hurricanes are bad.. blah blah blah. but who cares, i don't have to live in a big house. natasha is  new baby momma ( wasn't inspected to have another kid)! shocked me too, kinda happy, not was ready for that surprised. Hope the baby is health.


Goals!!
  long Term goal is to move by the beach!
Get my bachelor degree  in science  or business.
I want to get my law degree in real estate.

short term goal
study and take my inspector test
get my broker licenese

I believe the prayer worked

So I got to see rylan today, for an hour but after not seeing him for 4 months. I thing that  was a good start for Lil. We really didn't fight.  but she said she was going to take as much money as possible for child support an very bold statement but knowing her it's a very true statement.  She still is acting like a little kid and wants a family to be back together or I won't see rylan again.  I know she wasn't happy when we were together. I really don't know why she wants to get back together. I don't think that's going to happen. I think i scared jessie when b/c she doesn't want me to go back with lil. I think she actually does like me.  I prayed today for penitence and to let everything work out right. It helped thx god! Just going throwing out there.  On that note it's super late (early). I need to get up and go to church in the morning w/ jessie :). I hope it works out between me and her. I guess time will tell. So far so good, besides a few issues that kinda bother me; nothing major. Hope she quites smoking, staring to be a turn off b/c i stop smoking. I might buy her the gum.