I believe the prayer worked

So I got to see rylan today, for an hour but after not seeing him for 4 months. I thing that  was a good start for Lil. We really didn't fight.  but she said she was going to take as much money as possible for child support an very bold statement but knowing her it's a very true statement.  She still is acting like a little kid and wants a family to be back together or I won't see rylan again.  I know she wasn't happy when we were together. I really don't know why she wants to get back together. I don't think that's going to happen. I think i scared jessie when b/c she doesn't want me to go back with lil. I think she actually does like me.  I prayed today for penitence and to let everything work out right. It helped thx god! Just going throwing out there.  On that note it's super late (early). I need to get up and go to church in the morning w/ jessie :). I hope it works out between me and her. I guess time will tell. So far so good, besides a few issues that kinda bother me; nothing major. Hope she quites smoking, staring to be a turn off b/c i stop smoking. I might buy her the gum.

Time Management

This title means a lot because I'm horrible at this. before I start if you don't know me I'm the biggest procrastinator in the world. First I thought it was bc i was native american and it's just genetics, But No it's just the way I was  born ... haha!! I'm a cancer and when my gf read my horoscope it said I was born a Procrastinator.   I need a plan and start managing my "LIFE" better. Now I've read the "Art of War"... some of it, it's a long book... and again I procrastinate;  very good book none the less. I need a plan and put it in action. I will try to get started today. Okay.. next subject... Why don't ppl try to help them self and take help from others. I mean really. Being with them stresses me out. Idk what to do with them. I guess I need to do my own thing and find myself; which I found myself.. I'm awesome! haha.  I want to be more successfully. Okay i'm writing to much on this blog..

another day in paradise

I got that phrase from  Randy  from work. Just had to put that as my title. Which ironic bc I think going to work is away to get away sometimes. Lately it's been a great place to keep my mind off of things. I really need to get to the real estate office.. again i would love to sell something. anyway...
 I haven't blog in a while so here is my update. March as i predicted was going to busy. We just bought 6k's for the business. Tried it out for the Deirkes concert. The new projectors were awesome... is awesome. on my personal side i'm cleaning the house today, and i want to start a video blog... maybe a you tube channel. I feel that I should start tell; show my side of life to rylan. Seem I'm not able to see him. at least he knows i'm thinking about him. hope i get to see him soon.

March 1 2011

Well a lot is happening mostly good things. I had a great vacation in PCB, Fl with a great girl I met about a month ago. Still iffy about her, but hope everything goes well with our relationship. guess time will tell.  On the work front. March will be super busy, and I need to play catch up. Past sh*t;   is baby mamma drama. I still haven't seen my son since Dec. 4. also i should add out of the blue she text me if I want to see my son, I have to pick him up on Feb 19, b/c she has a job interview in Virginia. I think she is full of it. Then she doesn't want me to see him at all. She told me I don't see him anyway so what's the point. It's probably b/c I don't know she lives at. So as of now I'm not sure if she took him out of state, or they are still here. She want me to sign my rights away, but that's not going to happen. He needs to know that I care about him and not going to let him go. After the phone conversation we had after she text. She said she will never let me see him. That not going to happen....  He's mom is a total as* and I think is angry, b/c i moved on with my life. I clean his room out, yesterday b/c i figured I faced the fact that I probably won't see him for a good while. ( that really hurts me to do this, and talking about it today with mel... wasn't really a subject  I want to talk about at dinner. I got most of his stuff out and gonna give away the rest of  stuff that someone else can use. Hope everything works out....  I'm ready to see ry!